I Slowed Down.

Nov 17, 2023

The benefits are better than I hoped.

I’m in a beautiful season of life where there just isn’t enough time to do all the things I want to do, or even all the things I need to do. I remember seasons of frustration when it felt like I was waiting to do something meaningful. Now it feels like there is an endless list of meaningful things to do. Professionally, personally, and more, I’m in the season of action.

And, over the past few years, all that pressure and excitement resulted in utter burnout. Mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually. Too tired to feel like me in any sphere.

So, this year has been one of paring back wherever I can. Slowing down to reset so I can be more intentional and effective in the things that matter most.

It’s still been crazy, but I’ve made progress. I’ve not done things that would have been essential in other seasons. I’ve left potential business on the table, and made less money as a result. I’ve fed my family less homemade food. I’ve accepted that my house won’t reach my standards for a while. All this has been necessary and good for me and those around me, even if it means accepting a “less than ideal” outcome. I simply can’t do it all. But my best can be good enough.

As I get to the end of the year, the results are finally showing. The most surprising: I’ve started to see again. To see people. To see the beauty around me. To see friends struggling and grieving, and ways to help. To see God’s work and hear His voice in a way I haven’t for a long time. Ultimately, I’ve been able to dream again.

And I can think better. Question. Challenge. I’m not a productive machine at the level I was a year ago. But I’m thinking clearer. Wiser.

I’m ready to move forward, but in a completely different way. It was a too-long sprint that needed a recovery period. Now, it’s time to move, but slower and smarter. I’m committed to sharing any work I can with others. I’m excited to lean on a copywriter and an analyst and a project manager, and maybe soon another designer. Better for me, better for my team. Better for my husband and kids.

And, better for my clients. We are ready.